I almost forgot

I feel like its been forever since I put the fingers to the keyboard. It seems I start writing then remember I really should be working on my homework and such and since this is no longer an assignment I can’t justify the time spent on this blog. Even now, I probably should be attempting to write my essay. But fuck it, I feel like blogging.

So I have been working on my essay for A.P. lame, and like all the other essays we have done this year, I at first struggled with a topic. I don’t just want to blindly pick a topic, I want to feel a strong connection between the things I chose to write. I was talking to Ayers though, trying to come up with an idea and we were looking through my blog to find ideas. As many of you know, I am black, and those of you who have read my blog know that I have brought this fact up once or twice before. It wasn’t until Ayers suggested it that I really thought I could write something good on this topic. 

I started writing it on Saturday and was amazed at what came out. I have never really thought about what it means to me to be black, and this essay really showed some inner thoughts. I know it’s going to sound kind of dumb, but I got so into it that at one point my eyes started watering a bit. It was just an idea that I found really powerful and was surprised to uncover. 

I have never been labeled as black, based on personality that it. Countless times I have had people call me the whitest black person they know. It doesn’t really bother me though, because I know they are only saying that based on stereotypical ideas of both races, but a lot of people are under the notion that because I don’t dress a certain way or speak in a certain tone, I am not connected with my roots. This is absurd though because I have had to live my life being labeled as the black one. I know where I’m from and I know what I am, at least in terms of heritage.

I must say that before this essay though, I most likely wouldn’t of been so sure of my ethnicity. I have never really considered myself black either, but my paper reassures me that I know what’s up. I don’t know I just got this feeling to post about this, I was just really excited. Anyway, hopefully I’ll be back to my regular postings soon.

But just so ya know, I am black. 

Peace.